She's Lost Control 2015

As Ronah navigates her master’s studies in New York City, she becomes embroiled in the intricate realm of sexual surrogacy, closely observed by Dr. Alan Cassidy. Introduced to Johnny, a man grappling with intimacy issues, their initial session brims with tension as Johnny’s antagonism towards Ronah’s attempts to connect simmers just beneath the surface. Despite this rocky beginning, Ronah’s commitment to assist Johnny in overcoming his struggles deepens, even as he reveals a profound distrust of her that almost borders on malice.

On the personal front, Ronah’s life becomes increasingly tumultuous. The maintenance man in her apartment building prefers to stir up trouble rather than fix a leaky pipe, while video calls from her brother reveal distressing news regarding their mother’s dementia diagnosis. As if these challenges weren’t enough, Ronah is confronted with the decision to freeze her eggs, a choice that emphasizes her uncertainty about both her future and romantic possibilities.

Amidst this chaos, Ronah seeks refuge in her neighborly interactions, yet even these connections turn out to be more complicated than they seem; her neighbor’s legal battle against the superintendent sets off a chain of events that leaves Ronah feeling ensnared in a web of turmoil.

Despite these stresses, Ronah perseveres in her work with Johnny, and their sessions slowly evolve from hesitant exchanges to more intimate experiences. Thrilled by this progression, she shares her insights with Cassidy, who remains a supportive figure in her life. Seeking further guidance, Ronah turns to her mentor, Irene, for advice on managing the emotional complexities inherent in her profession.

Irene counsels Ronah to foster a rich social life outside her professional commitments, a message that resonates strongly with her. However, as she continues her sessions with Johnny, Ronah finds herself increasingly fixated on him, leading her to a secretive visit to the hospital where Johnny works as a nurse anesthetist. This visit leaves her feeling open and vulnerable, particularly as she witnesses Johnny’s flirtatious exchanges with a colleague, igniting feelings of jealousy that threaten her carefully curated boundaries.

As the therapeutic relationship between Ronah and Johnny develops, the stakes escalate significantly. In their next session, Ronah presses Johnny for an honest account of any extramarital relationships he might have, but he steadfastly deflects her inquiries, shrouding himself in secrecy. Meanwhile, she starts to share personal stories from her life, offering glimpses into her own emotional landscape.

The emotional closeness they have nurtured takes a sudden and intense turn when they share a passionate night together. Following this intimate encounter, Ronah chooses to stay with Johnny for the night – a seemingly innocent decision that unravels in the face of ensuing turmoil. As night falls, Johnny rises from bed, exhibiting a visage torn between anger and despair, fixating on his reflection in the mirror as if searching for clarity or redemption.

Sensing that something has gone awry, Ronah approaches him, her brow creased with worry. Instead of receiving comfort, she is met with a violent eruption of Johnny’s wrath. He accuses Ronah of faking their intimacy, unleashing an assault that leaves her battered and emotionally scarred.

In the aftermath, seeking refuge, Ronah heads to the police station, where officers offer her the option of placing a restraining order against Johnny. Nevertheless, she opts against pressing charges, preferring instead to extricate herself from the damaging dynamics of their relationship. As she embarks on the challenging journey of rebuilding her life, Ronah finds herself inundated with unwanted calls from a former client and struggles to connect with her neighbor for support.

These relentless challenges take a toll on Ronah, leaving her emotionally drained, with tears flowing freely as she reaches her breaking point. Later, after receiving medical care for her injuries at the hospital, her brother gathers her, making an observation about how her makeup accentuates the lines on her face – a stark reminder that the scars of trauma can be both visible and hidden.